Last year I was on the phone to a call centre. About money. It was quite a serious conversation. I casually dropped into conversation, “I really just want to be playing games right now instead of talking about money”. As luck would have it, the guy on the other end of the phone happened to be a gamer. We got chatting some more (about games, not money) and he said he thought I should stream the games I’m playing on Twitch because he thought it was going to be the next big deal. I kinda of said maybe, if I can be arsed, etc. etc. and we ended the conversation.
A couple of months later, I was bored one day and downloaded the app on my Xbox and thought I’d give it a go. It buffered, lagged and finally crashed on me and I gave it up as a bad job.
In September of last year I joined a guild (for the first time in probably 15 years) on The Elder Scrolls Online. One of the guys in the guild (who incidentally also ended up becoming my best friend) was really into streaming and said he thought I should take it up. So by March this year that’s what I did.
I started off streaming here and there, little bits and pieces, but my PC was pants so I was limited to my consoles and I didn’t have a streaming card which meant my streams looked really basic, no overlays, no alerts. It was all a bit rubbish. My boyfriend then kindly bought me a kick ass gaming PC so I worked really hard on buttons, overlays, panels, alerts and all that jazz and set myself up a decent channel on Twitch. You can check me out on there if you feel like it, no pressure.
For a couple of months I really hammered Twitch a lot. So much so, that I got into the Affiliate Program pretty quickly. I struggled with this though as I also work full time and my job is pretty demanding and pretty stressful. I also have OCD which means I’m pretty much constantly cleaning my house, so factor those in with streaming, it meant I had little to no time with my partner or my friends. I felt that all my “me” time vanished and I fell out of love with video games. I stopped streaming for a while. I had had a schedule that I just couldn’t stick to. I didn’t want to stream if I wasn’t 100% in a good mood because I felt as though I was letting people down by being boring for them. I stuck to watching other people stream and supporting the streamer friends I’ve made along the way (who are all awesome by the way and you should check them all out – you can find their details on my Twitch channel).I opened up to one of the streamers and really vented about how I wanted to give it my all but I just didn’t feel as though I had enough hours in the day and it was really taking over my life and making me miserable so I just stopped it completely. He gave me some great advice which was basically to not take it seriously and stream as a hobby, when I felt like it, without being bogged down by the pressure of a schedule.So that’s what I’ve been doing ever since. Streaming when I want to. For as long or as little as I want to. It’s working great and I’m back into video games full force now.