I’ve always been a homebody/keep to myself type person, same goes for my boyfriend, which may be a big part of why we’ve gravitated towards each other over the years. We’ve had our ups and down, including a few break-ups here and there, but we recently decided to get back together and aim for the long haul, wherever that road takes us. A big part of this involves talking and being more open about things when they are bothering us, something that, while we confided in each other about things outside of the relationship, is difficult for us to confront to each other.
Since I’ve begun my streaming ‘career’ (a girl can hope right?), I’ve opened up a brand new world of online communities and friends that I never imagined I would consider as dear to me as, if not more so than, family. Needless to say, I spend a lot of time on my phone/computer chatting on Discord, Twitter, Twitch, etc.
Last week, my boyfriend was acting incredibly down, and after urging him, he confided that he had been feeling very far away from me, something that I had not felt in the slightest (I say this because it’s usually me that feels him being distant). Though he didn’t say it specifically, I gathered that it was due to the excessive amount of time I’m online and in the clouds, which even I admit is a LOT recently. He would never ask me to stop streaming, or stop communicating with my friends and such, and he does his utmost to support me in everything I do, streaming included. We had three days together before some massive changes coming this week that will effect both of us in a huge way.
So, without his asking or saying, I decided to tame my online time significantly this weekend; partially for him and partially because I was feeling like shit and it was just getting overwhelming trying to keep up. (I have to add, I had a severe sore throat and could barely talk for the first few days, and being that sick feeling just made it way to hard to keep up with social media).
It was an amazingly, wonderful weekend. We connected more, did more activities than usual, and just were together and actually present with each other the entire three days. Yes, I got online here and there to send a quick tweet or check Discord, but for the most part, I was offline. I definitely had moments where I felt like I was missing out on things, or worried I would make people upset or something if I didn’t get online, but for the most part I was able to enjoy myself, rest, and actually feel better, both physically and mentally. On top of that, my boyfriend and I were able to get much closer again and resolve his feelings of being faraway from me. Towards the end, he thanked me for not spending as much time online the last few days. He told me he had noticed and it meant a lot to him.
Now that it’s Monday, I obviously am back online in full force, Discording, streaming, tweeting away, but it was wonderful to be able to do something so simple to show him how much I love him and now I have a better resolve to be more present when I do get time with him.
Anyway, not sure where I was totally going with this, but, it’s what I was thinking. I guess the moral is, don’t let the online world prevent you from being present in your physical relationships. It happens all too easily and sometimes has more of an effect than you can see.
Anywho, You guys are all fantastic people and I hope you’re having wonderful Mondays! See you all tomorrow 😉 (for reals. I’m determined to do a blog post every day this week, AT LEAST!)