Kate’s Diary – Sunday 2nd December – I do believe I will be getting a visit from three ghosts

Eugh.  I slept on the sofa again last night.  Dave was snoring (even more so than usual because he went out drinking last night and left my boys to babysit me).  It was cold.  And cramped.  I’ve woken up with a stiff neck, stiff back and the temper from hell.  We were supposed to be putting our tree up today, but the way I’m feeling, the tree will be going up alright – right up Dave’s ass.

I’m not feeling Christmas this year.  Usually I’m really excited and dying to put the decorations up and play Christmas music and go Christmas shopping, but I do believe that this year I have turned into Ebenezer Scrooge.  I think it’s lack of sleep.  No matter how many days holiday I book off work, I still seem to feel constantly burnt out.

Christmas is a stressful at time at best isn’t it?  I’m so worried.  We’ve struggled with money this year so I haven’t really had the extra cash to put to one side to save up for presents and now it’s creeping up on me and I’ve bought very little.  It’s so expensive and I’ve so many people to buy for.  I’ve been losing a lot of sleep over it.  The stress has caused the meaning of Christmas to become a bit obsolete for me to be honest.  I can’t wait for it to be over, and that makes me really sad because I used to adore this time of year.

I’ve spent a lot of my time playing Red Dead Redemption with my best mate Z and Fallout 76 with my bois Nova and Noodle.  I’ve had fun.

It’s so cold outside that I made a cuppa.  Then surfed Instagram and saw my neighbour put a picture up of a cake and a cuppa.  Now I feel like my tea isn’t going to be the same because of lack of cake.

And I’m rambling.  I should go.

Kate’s Diary – Sunday 25th November – It’s getting harder and harder to relax

I’m annoyed.  I just told my Google Home to “play Anitra’s Dance”.  It’s a classical tune, by the way.  My favourite piece of music.  It always reminds me of a mischievous cat for some reason.  Google decided I didn’t know my own mind and decided to play some rap music instead by someone who didn’t sound anything like Anitra.  It was rubbish.  I told Google to “shut the fuck up”.  She said, “okay, no more yapping!”, rather too happily for my liking, the smug bitch.  I hate when technology thinks it knows better than me.  As if it knows what I should be doing or listening to in order to relax.  Well it doesn’t and so help me God, that woman will learn to know her place in this house.  Always butting in when we’re watching TV, randomly telling us the football scores, interrupting conversations, like she was ever a part of them.  We don’t even really use the bloody thing to be honest.  Maybe that’s why she’s so insistent on being part of the family.  Maybe she feels lonely.  I know the feeling.  I have lots of people check in with me every day but I still can’t help but feel alone sometimes.

I feel as if we haven’t stopped for months.  We’ve had so much going on for so long that Dave has only recently got his sleeping pattern back, which means, unfortunately for me, that he also is back to snoring his arse off every single night.  Very loudly, I might add.  Which means I’m awake for the whole night.  Unless I go and sleep on the sofa downstairs, but it’s too small for me and I end up cramped up with a dead leg.  Unpleasant.  So I’ve been struggling by with around an hour and a half sleep every night for the last month or so.  I also went to visit my sister last weekend and did a lot of driving, which also tired me out, then I went to work and blah blah, you know the score.  Basically I burnt myself out.  I couldn’t even summon the energy to stream last week.  I was trying to keep to my regular routine of work, home, tidy up, prepare for work tomorrow, sort kitties out, stream, read, bed, but there was just too many things on the to-do list and I couldn’t keep up.  If I had been a Sim, I would be getting told “Kate’s queue is full” right before breaking out the nearest mop, drawing a face on it and talking to it with a crazy look in my eye.

I spoke to one of my friends who I deem a very practical and reliable “grown up” (as I see him), and he told me I should be relaxing and taking a break and that the people around me wouldn’t see it as me letting them down.  That they would be very supportive.  And they really were.  I was thankful for it.

Friday gone was spent playing old-new games with my fake little brother in South Africa.  He always makes my brain want alcohol (I mean, even more so than usual) and I may have been a tad over-generous with my measures of gin to tonic.  I woke up feeling extremely delicate on Saturday.  But I still put my computer on and streamed a bit of Fallout 76, which I was enjoying right up until the point that my stream crashed and ended and I hadn’t even noticed and continued playing and talking to myself for a further two hours.  When I realised, I was miffed to say the least.

Today I’ve been doing grown up things, like buying kettles and those things you put your tea, coffee and sugar in.  I’m a great lover of cute and quirky and, as sad as I am, and will even admit it, I sat looking at them for ages after putting them on the kitchen bench.  It inspired me to do some more housework and make my house nice and cosy so I could cuddle up with my cat and watch some more episodes of ‘The Last Kingdom’ before reading then bed.

Usually I play games on a Sunday.  Or I hang out with my best friend.  Wednesdays and half Sundays are usually our days.  Instead, tonight I decided to focus solely on trying to relax and unwind so maybe I sleep tonight and maybe I will be good for something in the morning.  My house is tidy and cosy, I lit the tealights, decided to blog and vent and I’m sat in my PJ’s all snug with my Bug (my cat – he’s called Bug – after the main protagonist from the movie ‘My Soul to Take’ – cos that guy always got ganged up on and bullied, and so does my cat – I realise this sounds utterly mental).

I guess I was feeling mostly okay but right now I just sort of feel a bit lonely.  I’ve been asked by my friends to come play Fallout with them and I know my other great darling of a friend G would suggest I hang out in Discord or something but I just mostly don’t really know where to put myself.  I feel a little empty.  Like a part of me is missing.  I should probably go give my head a shake, make a cup of green tea and think of something worthwhile to actually blog about…

Greetings

Well hello there. You seem to have stumbled upon my humble lil blog post so let me tell you about myself. My name is remotelypeachy aka Peachy aka Keeley and I am a university student, currently studying BA HONs in Fine Art. A few fun facts about myself include my love of horse riding, scented candles and peach flavoured ice tea. I’m a born and bred essex gal, I dress like the 80’s and 70s vomited all over me and I bloody love curry.

I am currently a streamer, of the art kind, fairly new to the scene I suppose. I found Twitch at the beginning of this year, my first streamer being Muyskerm (Bob), friend of jacksepticeye and Markiplier and became quickly addicted to his play-throughs of PUBG. This was the first community I became a part of, I made friends with people from across the world and we all had this admiration of Bob and his friends in common. But it didn’t feel like a family and I lost touch with those I originally felt close to. I don’t regret those friendships because they got me to where I am today.

I wanted to do things for myself and I started watching smaller, more independent streamers and I did things slow. I never once considered being a streamer before hand but after a shit few years I just wanted to do something different and something I would actually enjoy. I met my best friend Chris aka TallGuyGaming, in the utterly worst circumstances but I now can’t imagine my life without him. For some reason he insists on listening to my rambles and awful singing of Bohemian Rhapsody. Cat, Shannon, Tyler, Mariss, Bill, Shay, Jan, Kate. Wonderful, marvellous people who have no idea how much I love them. This was all through this weird dude Mr Dart, who I admit, made me laugh out loud to the point of hysterics when I’d leave his stream on in my bedroom (that’s how I’ve got 300+ hours babes). I didn’t even like State of Decay, there was just something about him that me think, yep. He’s my dad. All jokes aside, Mike has also topped up the chart to best friend.

Its weird to think that this year has been the best and the worst year of my ‘young’ life so far. I don’t think I have ever believed more in the saying “every cloud has a silver lining”. I really wouldn’t be where I am today without my friends. My family. They have just kept pushing me and supporting me to be the best version of me that I can possibly be and I will just have to continually thank them with love and hugs til the day I go up to that big ol dude in the sky.

This was a disgustingly sappy first blog post of mine, I promise you wont throw up when reading my next one.

Halloween streams and streamer spotlights

I was thinking of ideas for blog posts and I thought that there is one thing I have an abundance of and that is streamer friends and I really love to support them and great streamers in general so I thought it would be cool to do streamer spotlight posts, highlighting people I’ve come across that are really awesome and deserve tons of recognition.  I will be starting my spotlight posts with a streamer who I have been friends with now from the start and am so proud of because he really does give it his everything and puts in so much time and effort – noodle3000.  I’m hoping to post one of those every week, so will be aiming to post noodle’s spotlight by the end of the week, so watch this space.

It’s been such a busy week for me.  I finally got some finance so have bought a new car.  Well, you know, not new new but newer than the one I had and it’s safe and sturdy.  I spent most of Tuesday sorting that out, spent some time with one of my friends last night, have streamed tonight, pick my car up on Saturday, help my dad set up his new Amazon Echo (funny story for another time) and then on Sunday pop over to see my mum.  So basically I have tomorrow night free and I decided to do a Halloween stream.

We had a Halloween party last year that we pretty much went all out on it and it was fancy dress.  I got a last minute skeleton dress and Dave painted my face, so I’ll ask him to do that again for me tomorrow and I’m gonna get a group of people together and play some Dead by Daylight.  I’m always cannon fodder/bait/decoy so we’ll see how it pans out.

It’s safe to say I’m pretty shit at it.

Kate’s Diary 18th October 2018 – It’s been kinda hard

Wow it’s been a while since I posted!  There has been so much going on / gone on that I’ve kind of had to prioritise and whilst I would have loved to have blogged to vent, I struggled to find the right words.  So I streamed instead.  I put a good deal of effort into streaming.  And when I wasn’t streaming I was trying to be there for my boyfriend, whose dad sadly passed away a fortnight ago so everything was a bit up in the air, we didn’t know whether we were coming or going and both our schedules went to pot really.  It was hard.  It was also exacerbated by the fact that my grandad also passed away and I wasn’t able to go to his funeral due to work commitments.  I’ve felt a little lost with ideas for blog posts to be fair, hence this one of mostly rambling.

I’ve met a lot of new people who have joined our little community of gamers so I have made a lot of new friends, which I am grateful for because they have all checked in with me regularly and made sure me and Dave are okay, especially godsendss and 50cal so I’m genuinely really really grateful to have them around.

We have the funeral to attend tomorrow so I’m not really sure what kind of mood either of us will come back in to say whether I will be blogging properly or whether we’ll just be chilling watching TV or whether he will stay out and get drunk and give his dad a good send off.  Either way, if I drop off the radar for a bit, you know why.

When streamers get together…

I’ve not long got back home from spending the day in Whitby.  Me and my boyfriend met up with a couple of our streamer friends who happened to be spending the weekend there and since it’s not far from us at all and we couldn’t pass up the opportunity, we ventured out this morning and met them there.

Oh my goodness I haven’t laughed so hard for ages.  It’s been many, many years since I’ve had real life friends to spend any time with so this was a big deal for me and it was the magic medicine I’ve needed for a long time.  It was so much fun that my smile muscles hurt by the end of the day and as soon as we left them to go to the car, I actually felt really sad cos I missed them already.

It’s weird how you just instantly feel at ease around some people, like you’ve known them for years, and this is exactly how I felt around godsendss and 50cal so I can’t wait to hang out with them again.  I realise there’s still a stigma about meeting people you’ve met on the Internet but I can safely say after today that this is a great thing to do and streamer meet ups, for anyone who hasn’t arranged one, should definitely be a thing.  These two people, who I basically met when I streamed randomly one day back in March when I was giving Twitch a go for the first time and gods showed up in my chat that day and every stream after.  These two people who could quite easily become very close friends in real life.  Anyway, before I go all gooey and lose my credibility with gods, here are a few snaps of our outing today!

Kate’s Diary – September 28th – I’m having a party and you’re all invited

Today is the Macmillan Coffee morning at work.  Except I had tea instead.  Five cups of it to be precise.  And that was before 10am.  I started work at 8am.  So to say I’m now on a caffeine rush is a bit of an understatement.
Usually we all bring cakes in, but none of us are really cake people and we thought this year that we’d stop being morons and eat something we all like.  So we got toast and crumpets (so British right?) and we ate them and drank tea (VERY British right?).
I started this morning feeling really, really, inescapably down in the dumps.  I recently lost a friend and it’s hit me almost unbearably hard for weeks.  I fought and fought but it wasn’t enough and this morning I have had to finally walk away and say goodbye forever.  Everyone must have noticed I was bummed because people have gone out of their way to cheer me up and make me smile.  It’s worked.  I feel better.
I decided to stream tonight because I’m really enjoying Stardew Valley and I really enjoyed the company I received when I streamed it last.  It was good fun and I laughed and smiled.  They say laughter is the best medicine and by God they are right.  I feel better when I am in front of my computer, and in the company of like-minded people, joking around and talking about nothing and everything.  So I’ll be streaming over on my Twitch channel at 6pm GMT tonight.  If anyone wants to stop by and keep me company on this Friday evening after a long week, I would very much appreciate that.  I’ve carefully chosen an upbeat playlist just for the occasion so you can all come, drink alcohol and sing with me.  Let’s have some fun 😉
Hopefully see you all there 😛
Keep being spiffy everyone!